LOLOLOL, I haven’t been on here in a long time, almost two months! Oh well.

Last day of school tomorrow :D

I’m always up and down with you. One day we will be laughing and enjoying the time we have together. Another day, we could be fighting until one of us is crying ourselves to sleep. I don’t know about you, but I’m sick of this roller coaster ride. I just want things to be going up all the time. It feels like, to me, that I’m the only one that wishes that for us. I’m not saying that you don’t, I just don’t see that you feel the same way as I do. It’s hard, really hard. If you care for me as much as you say you do, freakin’ show it. Don’t have me guess each and every day I wake up in the morning. You once told me you would do anything and everything for me… Where is that person? God only knows what happened, but I truly wish that he could bring him back to me. I miss him. Just because I let you prove that to me, doesn’t mean you can stop just because I accepted your offer. Prove me wrong. Show some damn effort.

I honestly can’t catch a break these days. I thought trying your best at anything meant you would get what you want. WELL, that’s a flat out lie. Sometimes you don’t get what your aiming for. At times, you get put down even more for exceeding. I had to learn that the hard way.

It’s not how much effort you put into something, it’s how much you are willing to put in the effort day after day: that makes all the difference.